Literally right after I had written a long post about how stressed I was trying to find a shipper to get New Kid here and how I was going to have to scratch my horse trial this weekend, my prayers were answered and the track trainer found a rig to pick New Kid up on Thursday. Hallelujah!
So that takes relieves at least one point of pressure. It still doesn’t change the fact that I’m right in the middle of Open Enrollment at work and I thought it would be a good idea to go to Poplar to compete this weekend. And of course, someone still has to be there to receive New Kid, but details. Seriously, what was I thinking?
This is kind of not my fault though since I signed up for this show when Open Enrollment was scheduled to end on November 6th. They kept pushing around the dates and suddenly I realized the show and the end date of OE coincided. Oh well!
I am feeling good about Poplar though. I had a random mid-day lesson last week where I actually got to jump and it was both productive and fun. The big goal for me is that I have to get that perfect canter every time. None of this Goldilocks bullshit of it being too big or two slow. It has to be just right.
Also, I like Poplar and we’ve ridden there the most out of any other location down here. I feel very confident that we can handle the courses.
This should be a fun if crazy weekend though. Poplar with Gus. New Kid coming to town. And OE finishing! I don’t know which one I’m more excited about.
Finding my rhythm again has been a little bit of a challenge. At my last job, I had a great schedule that left me plenty of time to go to the barn during the afternoon and still be home in time to do other things. Sadly I found myself not really taking advantage of it due to being so mentally exhausted at the end of the work day.
New job has sadly doubled my commute and I now get home a whole two hours later (may shift a bit when I am feeling a bit more comfortable with my job). But, even with that change in time, I get home and actually want to go to the barn. I was a little afraid I had lost that for good.
Last night I stopped at home just long enough to grab Guinness and then hightailed it to see Gus. We had a wonderful ride and worked through some major stiffness to the right. And afterwards, I actually went through my whole routine of wiping down tack and a full groom… all things I’ve let fall to the wayside when I barely had the energy to make it our to the barn.
I’m excited to start working towards my goals again. We’ve got big things coming up and I don’t want to miss them because I’m too mentally drained to get out to the barn. Although, I’m sure Gus didn’t mind the break!
A few weeks ago I went to Tahoe and had the most amazing time. I came home from that trip feeling refreshed, if a bit sad, and determined to turn my life around. So what if thing a are a little crazy at work? If I just buckled down, I was determined to get it under control.
I dutifully showed up to work that next morning, rolled up my sleeves, got my coffee, and opened my email only to find that while I was gone work had apparently decided to go to hell in a handbasket. I wish I was exaggerating but what little moral remaining in our department was completely shot. My get’er done attitude went out the window in less time then the greenest cowboy at his first bull ride.
But little did my office know that I had an ace up my sleeve. While in Tahoe, I got a call from a recruiter about a job. Within a week of returning I had gone through the interview process and found myself with a job offer that was more pay and less work. I didn’t have to think hard before signing that! I gave my notice immediately and this week started my new job. While I’ve doubled my commute time (a total bummer but pretty much unavoidable here in Hotlanta) I am already much happier.
It will take some time to completely recover from the stress and anxiety I was under at my last job but I am already seeing signs of improvement. So now it is on to the next big adventure!
I feel like this year is slipping away from me, despite it only being the 7th. I just feel so worn down after work that the thought of driving in stupid Hotlanta trafic out to the barn is just depressing. And so I haven’t been going as much as I should.
I have gotten out a few times though!
Including last Sunday. Only, when I got out there I realized I had forgotten my locker key and so had no access to my boots or, worse, my helmet. Guess I wasn’t going to actually ride but I wasn’t just going to go home without working Gus either. So I found a lunge line and got to work.
I’m really happy to see that Gus is getting more confident with this jumping thing. I remember the fight we had the first time I asked him to pop over a little jump on the line. It was awful. I honestly thought we might never go to an event.
Thankfully I didn’t give up!
Somehow I missed November goals… I could have sworn I had done them! Maybe just in my head. 🙂
1. Work on getting canter departs quiet – These are SO much better! If he’s worked up they can still be excited, however, 9 times out of 10 they are nice and relaxed. Especially to the right.
2. One trail a week – Close enough. I always hack after a ride.
3. Work on rhythm and suppleness in all aspects of our riding – Couldn’t do a lot of this while we didn’t have shoes on but now I feel like we are making progress.
4. Do more poles and start grid and gymnastic exercises – SUCCESS!
5. Lunge on a hill to build up stifle muscles – Didn’t get to this…
1. Get through first month of new job – Let’s not discuss the job. I think that’s better for everyone.
2. Budget better – We were good until Black Friday and Cyber Monday came along. Luckily all Christmas gifts are purchased so I should be good through the end of the year.
3. Work on being more quiet with my leg and more forgiving with my elbows, maybe lower my stirrups one more hole for flat work – I did lower the stirrups. I need to build up some strength in my legs so they stop swinging at the trot.
1. Work on stretching his neck long and low
2. One trail a week
3. Work on getting quiet transitions up and down
4. Do more poles and gymnastic works
5. Go off property
1. Continue applying for jobs and finding a better situation for myself